Happiness

Well, for once I'm going to post something that doesn't include me bitching about something. I am truly so very happy right now, for the first time in a long time. I am done school, tree season is over, and I'm about to start a new career somewhere, as soon as I start looking for a job. And I am in a great relationship with a wonderful person who makes me very happy. I know that I've had a lot of sad stuff happen to me this year, but I'd have to say the best thing that happened was starting to talk to Tony and then ending up dating him, and then being his girlfriend. He's a great father, a talented musician, a passionate football fan, compassionate, caring, funny, intelligent, gentle, sexy, and the list goes on. I don't know what made me lucky enough to have been able to meet him, in this of all years, but I am truly thankful. He keeps me sane when I feel like I could just go crazy sometimes, and he makes me laugh when all I feel like doing is crying. It's amazing what a good relationship can do for you, and for the first time in my life, I really feel like I actually know what I'm doing. I was so bad at them before, and was probably too young to really be in one. And it feels really good to be open and honest with someone about everything, and know that they are doing the same with you. And what makes me even luckier, is that he has a great kid, who is just so much fun to be around. It's like I got two for the price of one. There's just so much happiness right now, even in a night of football that ends in tickling each other and rolling around on the floor. I feel as though my dad is embracing me from far away, using others he knows will take good care of me.

I have a lot of great friends too, who I feel blessed to have. Martha, Kim, Denise, Amanda, my sister. And I make more friends through Tony, like his friend Steve's fiance Jen, and Dave's girlfriend Kristie. For the first time in my life I think I'm realizing what it truly means to be grown up. And I like it.