Well, it's been a while since I've posted on this thing...guess you could say life has been keeping me pretty darn busy as of late. I have started skating again with the Delaware Synchronized Skating Team, and that keeps me pretty busy for the months of December to February, as I am always going somewhere different for competitions. Today is one of those killer days for me, because I just had practice last night, and am completely exhausted from getting home at 12:30, and getting up at 6:30 to head on back to work again. Work is kind of slow lately, so it makes it even harder to keep my head up.
What else is new? Well, I'm about to move into my very first house. Yes, my very own house. I have to say that that's really one of the most exciting things I will have accomplished yet. I can hardly wait. Although I could go without all of the stress involved with getting things ready to go to settlement. Renting is much easier. Just sign on the dotted line, give them a deposit, and the rest really is their problem. With a house, it's all your problem, and a 30 year problem at that. But it's worth it to be able to finally have a place to call my own, that I can decorate however I want, and not have to worry about when I'm moving the next time.
Tony and I are doing incredibly well. I don't think I have ever loved someone so much. He is like my best friend and life partner all rolled up into one. I truly enjoy his company, and I know that we are going to make many memories that last in this house together. I thank God every day for putting someone like him in my life.
My sister is still having a lot of problems. I wish I could say that she wasn't. We haven't talked in probably ten months or more, and here it is the holidays and still nothing. I've apologized so many times, and at this point, I don't think there's anything left to apologize for, and if I did, I wouldn't know what it was for. She seems to be taking her anger over our father's death out on everyone, as if we had some hand in it, and we aren't hurting too. Her judgment of character is severely skewed, and her attitude and treatment of my mother continues to go downhill. She isn't talking to my father's side of the family at all, with the exception of my grandmother. And to me, that is a great sadness. You would think losing someone she loved a great deal so suddenly would make her realize how much she should want to be close to the ones that are still around. But unfortunately, it hasn't. If anything, it's made her push them all away and soured her persona for the worse. I honestly don't feel like I know her anymore at all. She is completely self-centered, and only concerned with what she wants and how to get it. She even hoards things of my father, including pictures, and won't let the family copy them or have access to them. She is completely different. And my father would be very disappointed I think, to know that she was using him and his death to hurt others. But you can't convince her of that or of anything else rational right now. So we're all waiting for her to come to her senses.
Other than that, I don't think there's much more news from me at this point. Looking forward to spending time with family on the holidays and trying to get a little bit of rest in before moving. Happy Holidays to you all. I hope they are peaceful and filled with laughter.
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